Thursday, September 16, 2010

I'm alive

hi blog readers.. I'm not sure how many of you are still with me it's been almost 3 months since my last post. As you know my dad has been battling multiple cancers for the last 3 years. on August 5th at 2:39pm we said goodbye for the last time. He was in so much pain at the end. I'm so thankful that hospice came in to help the last 2 weeks. I know you don't personally know my dad but let me tell you a little bit about him.. My dad, Scott Douglas was the most caring loving person I've ever met. He was in the Air Force and later became a machinest owning his own business for almost 20 years. He was a competition shooting champion holding some state records in Utah. We loved to spend time together laughing and doing things like camping, fishing and just plain old hanging out.

My dad was 49 when he passed away. He was only a month and half from his 50th birthday. Next week on the 22nd we will celebrate his birthday.

I'm sorry you guys.. I just can't write anymore. Once I pulled up the picture I started crying and I can't seem to stop. I haven't seen this picture in a couple years. This was taken in October 2007 after we shut down his machine shop because that's what caused his cancer.

I hope to be back to blogging soon. I need an outlet. For now take care and be safe.



Sandie said...

Vicki, I'm so sorry about your dad but am glad he is at last pain free. Thank you for sharing some of his personality with us. Take care


Cheryl Walker said...

OMGosh Vicki Im soooo sorry hun! I know this is hard, but at least he suffers no more, and just remember this, your dad wants you to be happy and move forward with your life k hun! I lost my dad when he was in his 30's from cancer, and its the hardest thing to watch someone you love suffer, and then pass.

I do have to say, I think of all the good times, and I still cry today, and miss him dearly! God bless you hun, and I hope and pray that you get through this with your family and friends there to support you k. If you ever need to talk you have my email

Sending hugs your way!!!

Holly said...

Vicki, I'm so sorry that you lost your dad. I know how much you must be missing him. I hope that your memories of him help to comfort you. I'll keep you in my prayers.

aunt25 said...

I am so sory for your loss. Just know now that he is without pain and you will always have him close to your heart with his memories. Prayers for you and your family that you find some peace.

Nina said...

*hugs* It'll be okay, girl. He's still watching over you. Know that you are still very well-loved. God bless you and your family. Love you.

Ira said...

Hi Vicki,
I know exactly how you feel and what you're going through, I lost my mother of cancer, too... Just go with the flow and let your emotions go wherever they take you. It's a hard loss to take, but your father will watch over you, you will feel his presence, just open yourself up. I'm going to give you a big hug, all the way from the Netherlands and I'd also like to thank you for visiting my blog and your sweet comment. Take care, ok? Hugs, Ira x